this year, I’m thankful for bacon.
November 22, 2010 § 4 Comments
It just occurred to me that this Thanksgiving, I have the healthiest relationship with food that I’ve ever had. It probably sounds strange to people who have always enjoyed big meals with no qualms (or maybe to people who don’t talk about their relationships to food), but to be honest, Thanksgiving used to stress me out.
Most Thanksgivings, since early high school, I had a dysfunctional/rocky relationship with food. Big meals with the family were not what I considered a celebration. I would pile my plate with the assortment, then only pick at the turkey and veggies, hoping I was the picture of normalcy. Afterwards, I’d still be hungry. Success!
Last year, at Thanksgiving, I was vegan. Because I went to my Aunts for dinner and didn’t feel like explaining what a “vay-gun” (how my parents pronounce it) was, there wasn’t much for me to eat. Which was perfect, really, because to me, being vegan was just an excuse to restrict what I ate.
What helped me the most was my boyfriend, who loves food, healthy or unhealthy (mostly unhealthy). Alex helped me realize that eating ice cream after dinner won’t kill me, and neither will eating pizza four times a week (it’s my favorite food, okay?). I still care about eating healthy, but I’m starting to realize I need to be mentally healthy as well. I used to feel like dessert was “wasted calories”, but now I know that chocolate and ice cream make me super happy. I used to feel guilty after eating a big meal until I was stuffed, but now I enjoy meals like that with relish, especially if the food is particularly awesome and is bacon.
I’ll be working this Thanksgiving, which pretty much sucks, because it will be the first time in a long time that I will actually be able to enjoy it. If I get out of work in time, I might be able to celebrate with my boyfriend and his family, but if not, there’s always Christmas dinner. Or, you know, the other 364 days in the year that I can enjoy delicious food (sometimes in copious amounts) to the fullest. And for that, I’m thankful.